What do you do with a love that won’t leave?
Even when you wanted it to. Even if you wanted it to.
On bad days, like a cobweb you can’t get disentangled from. On good days, like sunshine on the top of your head blessing everything with warmth that fills you to your toes.
Love knocks unbidden, but once the door is opened the house may be filled with something you’ll never get out of the carpets or the air. A fragrance that follows you from room to room, leaving nothing untouched, unmarked. Others may come in, but that love is stubborn and stays, blessing or cursing as the the case may be.
What do you do with a love that won’t leave?
Maybe you take it with you. Breath deeply and hold it in your lungs, accepting everything it can give.
Relax with it. Go with it and it will come with you, keeping you open to so much. A love neither unrequited nor gratified. Making you brave. Daring you to stretch and find more.
Sometimes it will cut open your heart and you will bleed with what is not. But others can enter that wound.
What do you do with a love that won’t leave?
Let it do it’s work, all it finds to do. And maybe one day you will look up to find that you (we) are somehow done.
Or maybe not. But either way, life is bigger, deeper, more unfinished – both full and wanting. Always wanting more.
Leaning Out 